I am so in pain - says Nigeria

“All I know is that I’ve wasted all these years looking for something, a sort of trophy I’d get only if I really, really did enough to deserve it. But I don’t want it anymore, I want something else now, something warm and sheltering, something I can turn to, regardless of what I do, regardless of who I become. Something that will just be there, always, like tomorrow’s sky. That’s what I want now, and I think it’s what you should want too. But it will be too late soon. We’ll become too set to change. If we don’t take our chance now, another may never come for either of us.” 
― Kazuo Ishiguro,

My name is Nigeria, and i live in West Africa. I have such a variety of kids from distinctive moms, you can call me father of a country.

One of my most terrific slip-ups was wedding an excess of wives who as at today, posturing such a great amount of risk to my life. I thought it would respect to have a greater family as the prospect of Abraham in the scripture didn’t leave my heart until i copied him.

God provided for me so much possibilities, love and blessings. I know the West have issue with characteristic calamities however i don’t, no earthquake, no volcano, no tropical storm and different things that the west are doing combating, yet the issue in my house is more terrible than what they have.

As a country, realizing that i have such a large number of kids, i chose to open such a variety of business to cook for their needs. My youngsters out of ravenousness have made my different business bankrupt while they are all battling for one which they think is lucrative.

I wish their moms are considerably more sensible, yet for this situation, they are each of the one and the same. All the years i have used, cash i have contributed, they are devastating it out of indignation, envy, power and covetousness.

My petroleum organization has murdered a significant number of my children. They have imparted themselves into North and South, with the north executing themselves and figuring out how to execute others in the south, while the south has depended on kidnapping, scamming, assaulting, raping, hatred and a lot more, the north has decided to utilize religion to inconvenience my home. They are currently besieging and devastating all that i have worked for. Have they overlooked they all grew up from one family unit that they bear my name as their surname? Have they overlooked what i have done to keep them alive till today? Why have they decided to reimburse me with such a great amount of abhorrent after all i have accomplished for them?

I cherish my kids however they are wanting to partition my family unit. No, they have isolated my family unit. Those behind my issue among my kids are those turning out to let me know they cherish me. Those grumbling about the issue don’t make any move to stop it. I am so old, i am sitting at this moment in my forlorn room, viewing the snow falling on my window sheet, i need to go home, i need this all to stop, i would prefer not to be their father any longer, they can pick an alternate surname.

My veins are frail, my eyes are brimming with tears, i could scarcely rest during the evening, i see my heart fleeing from me, the prospect of my children builds my circulatory strain. With all the cash i have made, my kids wasted it as opposed to giving good education, healthcare, good road, electricity and good water for their more youthful ones, they siphoned my riches to the west, take my grandchildren to the west for education and social insurance that i have in my own particular nation.

How belittling is that? How embarrassing and humiliating is their state of mind? The west was the person who came and detain me for a long time, those days when my most older and reasonable children were alive, they battled for my freedom and i know if they were alive now, these things wouldn’t have happened. Is this the issue of more new era? Goodness dear God, why have you provided for me kids that fail to offer the fundamental thinking and an icy heart?

I beg without stopping for even a minute, nothing happened, rather their issue deteriorate, why did i open the petroleum business? possibly my family unit would have been in place on the grounds that since the day i began the oil business, my life has never been the same again.

My house is presently hell on earth. I have existed numerous years in hell fire, God call me home and i need to invest time in paradise as well.

Goodness my dear home, what have i done wrong that prompted my anguish? i endured, perhaps i would have been better off with the west. Perhaps i shouldn’t have permitted my children to battle for my freedom, everything has fell, everything is gone out, nothing is left for me to be glad about.

The kids i called pioneers are awful. There is nothing to celebrate in my house, while most my eldest kids are terrible, their younger ones are similarly repulsive. No feasible end will bring them close or make them as more content as in the recent past.

I am so in pain - says Nigeria